T-minus 10 days and my first exam with the Open University will be over and done with. I haven’t really shared much about A200. Mainly because I bloody hate it. I have had the most horrendous time studying it and now I’m facing an exam I haven’t even revised for… I’m banking on the resit in September if I am completely honest.
I have enjoyed parts, but I’ve struggled through with the pregnancy, three school runs, keeping a house, a husband who doesn’t seem to grasp just how much this means to me… how much I really want it and how much stress wanting to get the highest grades possible puts on me. The stress worked, my grades steadily improved from TMA01 – TMA04… meaning I passed the Overall Continuous Assessment on those alone. With Baby Comma arriving 2 weeks late and the problems with breast feeding threw me all off kilter and I failed to get my head around submitting anything for TMA05 and succeeded in submitting only an essay plan for TMA06. 🙁 If I am honest, it leaves me with a rather bitter taste in my mouth heading into the exam.
I am dreading it. I can remember little of what I have studied over the last 9 months. I am aiming for a bare pass on the exam which is so unlike me but I’m thinking logically enough to know that my hopes of attaining anything above a grade 4 pass are long gone. I probably should be using this time to revise but, putting the bullshit excuses aside, I just don’t want to. I haven’t wanted to since Comma arrived and I’m just going to wing the exam. The good news is, though, I qualify for a home exam given that I’m still breastfeeding (even if only to settle the little monkey).